Monday, May 11, 2020
Yesterday was a brutal day. I was not hungry at all the entire day, and I felt like I was beaten with a cold banana. So far, I am thinking this new chemotherapy is not going to be good for me. Granted, it has only been a few days since my first chemotherapy treatment on this new medicine, but I had nothing yesterday, not even a little bit. I am accustomed to my steroid high lasting through most of Sunday so the crash I had yesterday was unexpected and so much more than I have had in the past. I know the drugs that have a longer time frame between doses affect your body more, but the slash and burn chemotherapy did not get me as bad as I felt yesterday. Slash-and-burn chemotherapy took four hours to administer without the pre-medications; this new chemotherapy only took half an hour to administer. I am pretty sure this chemotherapy is going to get a bad name when I name it.
My youngest sister, Karen-Mae, called me yesterday morning while I was still feeling completely useless. Karen-Mae was letting me know she had recorded one of the journal videos for my YouTube channel and we also scheduled her summer visit. Karen-Mae and I had a nice conversation and we spoke for an hour or so. It was a really nice way to make my crummy day a whole lot better. It is hard to feel miserable when you know your baby sister will be inside your house in a few weeks. (I was still miserable; however, I was a happy miserable.)
Today, is a much better day! My bank account shows I finally received my stimulus payment at the end of April, and do you know what I am doing with that money? I am going to send a check today for $1,200 toward principle on my house payment! Take that mortgage, I may manage to pay you off before my time runs out. (if my time is at least ten years, I am golden) Someday, I am actually going to get down to the $80,000 I listed on my GoFundMe campaign. I did not list the entire amount I still had outstanding when I created my GoFundMe account last year because I am planning for at least three years of monthly payments by me before making an effort to ask others for help becomes a necessary part of my life. After yesterday, I could be wrong; chemotherapy may kill me before I make it to three years.
Today I have enough room to talk about a subject I have been moving from day to day on my future journal entry list for two months. Star Trek. In all the various Star Trek incarnations, I have a favorite character and I have some less favorite characters. One series consists of the two characters I do not like at all. Star Trek: The Next Generation. Deanna Troi and Captain Picard were such awful characters that even as a teenager my love of Star Trek could not overcome my dislike of these characters. Do not get me wrong, I watched the show every week, but I always wished they had a real captain and got rid of that annoying Betazoid in the first season instead of Tasha Yar.
Flash forward to two months ago. Star Trek: Picard has been running a season, I think. I have never had any interest in watching it because, surprise, surprise, the captain is Picard, my second least favorite Star Trek character. Two months ago, I saw an ad while watching CBS online and did a double take. Was that Seven of Nine I saw in an ad for Star Trek: Picard? Seven of Nine is my favorite character in all the Star Trek universe. Now I am conflicted, should I spend the $10 a month so I can see Seven of Nine regularly? Do I really want to bother watching Captain Picard to see my favorite?
My piece of advice to you is to follow your heart even in a fantasy world. I miss Jeri Ryan since she finished her little stint on MacGyver a few days ago. There is a second Star Trek show airing on CBS All Access, and I could subscribe for one month to watch all the episodes from both series, and decide at a future date if I am willing to pay for monthly access to Jeri Ryan. Jeri you are worth it, but I am a dying cheapskate not willing to spend money on myself. I am willing to die without seeing a single episode of Star Trek: Picard.
Until next time,
Susanne
Please check out my GoFundMe page.
Yesterday was a brutal day. I was not hungry at all the entire day, and I felt like I was beaten with a cold banana. So far, I am thinking this new chemotherapy is not going to be good for me. Granted, it has only been a few days since my first chemotherapy treatment on this new medicine, but I had nothing yesterday, not even a little bit. I am accustomed to my steroid high lasting through most of Sunday so the crash I had yesterday was unexpected and so much more than I have had in the past. I know the drugs that have a longer time frame between doses affect your body more, but the slash and burn chemotherapy did not get me as bad as I felt yesterday. Slash-and-burn chemotherapy took four hours to administer without the pre-medications; this new chemotherapy only took half an hour to administer. I am pretty sure this chemotherapy is going to get a bad name when I name it.
My youngest sister, Karen-Mae, called me yesterday morning while I was still feeling completely useless. Karen-Mae was letting me know she had recorded one of the journal videos for my YouTube channel and we also scheduled her summer visit. Karen-Mae and I had a nice conversation and we spoke for an hour or so. It was a really nice way to make my crummy day a whole lot better. It is hard to feel miserable when you know your baby sister will be inside your house in a few weeks. (I was still miserable; however, I was a happy miserable.)
Today, is a much better day! My bank account shows I finally received my stimulus payment at the end of April, and do you know what I am doing with that money? I am going to send a check today for $1,200 toward principle on my house payment! Take that mortgage, I may manage to pay you off before my time runs out. (if my time is at least ten years, I am golden) Someday, I am actually going to get down to the $80,000 I listed on my GoFundMe campaign. I did not list the entire amount I still had outstanding when I created my GoFundMe account last year because I am planning for at least three years of monthly payments by me before making an effort to ask others for help becomes a necessary part of my life. After yesterday, I could be wrong; chemotherapy may kill me before I make it to three years.
Today I have enough room to talk about a subject I have been moving from day to day on my future journal entry list for two months. Star Trek. In all the various Star Trek incarnations, I have a favorite character and I have some less favorite characters. One series consists of the two characters I do not like at all. Star Trek: The Next Generation. Deanna Troi and Captain Picard were such awful characters that even as a teenager my love of Star Trek could not overcome my dislike of these characters. Do not get me wrong, I watched the show every week, but I always wished they had a real captain and got rid of that annoying Betazoid in the first season instead of Tasha Yar.
Flash forward to two months ago. Star Trek: Picard has been running a season, I think. I have never had any interest in watching it because, surprise, surprise, the captain is Picard, my second least favorite Star Trek character. Two months ago, I saw an ad while watching CBS online and did a double take. Was that Seven of Nine I saw in an ad for Star Trek: Picard? Seven of Nine is my favorite character in all the Star Trek universe. Now I am conflicted, should I spend the $10 a month so I can see Seven of Nine regularly? Do I really want to bother watching Captain Picard to see my favorite?
My piece of advice to you is to follow your heart even in a fantasy world. I miss Jeri Ryan since she finished her little stint on MacGyver a few days ago. There is a second Star Trek show airing on CBS All Access, and I could subscribe for one month to watch all the episodes from both series, and decide at a future date if I am willing to pay for monthly access to Jeri Ryan. Jeri you are worth it, but I am a dying cheapskate not willing to spend money on myself. I am willing to die without seeing a single episode of Star Trek: Picard.
Until next time,
Susanne
Please check out my GoFundMe page.
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